| "she isn't even able to come to terms with her own being. there's no stability. no assurance. is this life she's living? is it worth it? it's that moment in time when she realized she's not happy. she has everything she needs, and she isn't happy. it's impossible to be happy when you're living her life. if you were in her head, you'd understand." |
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| " i dont understand this. i gave you everything. i tried so hard and for what. all i did was set out to make you happy. i never deserved to have to suffer this way. i never did a single thing wrong. i just asked to have some things go my way once in a while but even then i wasnt allowed that. youd let me cry. youd walk away. you knew how hard it was for me to vocalize while i was teary eyed. i just wanted comfort. and when i asked you why youd hurt me like you did you ignored me. it was always about you. and the one time i stood up for myself you hurt me more. i never deserved it. after everything i did for you i felt so unappreciated. do you know how many times you took me out on dates. i can count it on one hand. over two years. and what about all those other girls you went behind my back with. why did you do that? you told me you loved me. well i love you too but i would never even think of doing that. i dont know what love is to you, but i know i loved you wih my whole heart, and you just took advantage of me." |
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| " its a nightmare, just going to sleep in itself. to shut my eyes only to be greeted by your oh so familiar face. in my head, these dreams take over. youre the main character in every show. just the slightest bit out of reach, always. scenarios go on. unfriendly sights and settings accompany you in torturing me. pulling my heartstrings as you find new ways to hurt me. it feels so real, it terrifies me. they always said your dreams are better than reality, but how can that be when im scared to sleep? " |
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| "You're all consuming. You make it hard to eat and sleep. You've filled my body and there isn't room for anything else." |
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| " they say we're not supposed to be dependent on others. we're supposed to lead independant lives and all of our actions are supposed to reflect on our own choices. well, have you ever actually tried to be without someone you've depended on for so long? for comfort, and love? have you ever been without that one person who you swore you'd never leave, and you'd never hurt? try being alone. completely cut off from that one person you absolutely need. see how long you last. see how long it takes before your insides tie themselves up and your stomach doesn't want the fuel you put in it. see how long it takes before you start to waste away due to lack of nutrients and affection. how much would you give to have that person back? no matter the situation. how much would you give to erase the memories that won't stop replaying in your mind? you know they're still sitting there waiting for you, are you waiting too? are you aware of how badly they miss you as well? can you go day-to-day without them overpowering all your thoughts and emotions? does it make you sick to think they might be happy without you? do you miss her as much as she misses you? " |
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